Loss

I haven't posted here in a while. Sorry about that, I was overtaken by projects and a new job, but really, everything seemed to be going really well. I was pretty happy. Unfortunately, life is a perpetual state of change and this past Thursday company cutbacks saw me laid off.

Thursday and Friday were really rough. One minute I'd be coping alright, looking up jobs, sending out my resume, and the next I'd look at the clock, realize I wasn't at work, and feel unbearably depressed. I guess everyone goes through this sort of thing.

The weekend was easier. Since they weren't days I was normally working anyway, the clock didn't feel like an ominous presence.

Today, I got three callbacks and set up three interviews over the next two days, so I'm feeling a little more like my usual, optimistic self and have actually managed to post a little on my beloved Absolute Write.

There are so many things I want to do. I want to write poems and stories, and draw silly pictures and make t-shirts and maybe redesign my website. I thought I could use the time off to do some of these things and distract myself. But as it turns out what I want most of all is to be working, to have a reason to set my alarm clock and get up in the morning and go. My roommate thinks I'm crazy. If someone were to pay him to sit around on his ass all day he'd be all for it, but as for me, something as simple as getting up to go to work makes me so bizarrely content with the state of the world; I never noticed it before. Well, seeing as I've never been unemployed before I guess that's how it goes.

I'll make sure to keep any of my readers updated when things are, well, looking up, as it were. For now, wish me luck!